Today is as good as it gets

I’ve had an interesting personal experience since releasing my first book six weeks ago. 

I’ve wanted to be a writer since 2017. 

In 2018, I realized I better practice my writing if I wanted to become a writer. So I published 30 blogs in 30 days. In 2019, I published 60 blogs in 60 days. In 2020, 100 in 100 days, and in 2021, I published 365 blogs. Every single day of the year.

That’s a long time and a lot of writing, and a lot of buildup. 

Maybe too much buildup? 

I realized I had seven and a half years of hopes and expectations piled on this book release. Hours of daydreams, coloring the canvas of this experience. 

The real book launch looked nothing like my daydreams. 

I’m not a bestseller. Many people I hoped would come to the launch party couldn’t make it. I spent a lot of my own money to make it happen. The book launch didn’t pull as many people or as many sales as I would have liked. 

And yet, somewhere in the quiet moments between all the hard work and unmet expectations, I realized that today is as good as it gets. 

If everything goes according to plan, and if my next book is a little bigger, and the next one a little bigger than that, and so on… If all goes according to plan, and I get a big publisher one day… then these book launches will get more hectic and more demanding, with more people I don’t know and love. 

As humble as this first launch is, and as hard as I’m working to sell these books, and write another one, and grow as an author, I realized that this one is special. This one is with the people who really care. The friends who really support me. The friends who wouldn’t miss it for the world. 

For the rest of my life, I’ll look back on this launch and these days fondly. This one is special. 

Today is as good as it gets.